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Before I Go
- Narrated by: Christine Rendel
- Length: 7 hrs and 38 mins
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Publisher's Summary
Known for the wit of her writing, Catherine Cookson was the UK's most widely read novelist during her lifetime. When her Estate discovered this never-before-published memoir in the attic of her home, it was an astonishing find. Before I Go is the definitive story of her life, in the author's own candid words.
While Cookson had authored previous autobiographies, none have truly touched upon the tragedy and personal anguish she experienced until now. For the first time, she reveals the worst years of her life - her constant battles with illness and a series of devastating miscarriages, the damaging jealousy of her friend and her struggle to be taken seriously as a writer. But what shines through most is her strength in the face of adversity, her deep love for her husband, Tom, the solace she found in her art and her unmistakable character. Before I Go is an inspiring story of resilience and a must for any Cookson fan.
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- Jordan Max
- 04-11-18
loved it! Thank you Catherine Cookson!
beautiful account to a lifelong struggle of survival. Catherine Cookson was a fighter and a hero in her own way.
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- Kindle Customer
- 05-14-19
Love Catherine
I absolutely love Catherine's stories. Sad she had such a tough life. So Happy she at least had true love. RIP to them both.
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- Peter Adleman
- 09-12-21
An enthralling look at that time period
An interesting look into her life and struggles. Some parts of the story are slightly disjointed, but considering that the author was blind while writing it thst is to be expected
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- Jenny
- 07-20-17
A must for Catherine Cookson Fans!<br />
Catherine Cookson has been my favourite author since the 1960's and I've read all her books enjoying them all. Her stories are filled with strong women fighting against their role in the society of the age they lived.
Most of the stories, set in and around Tyneside, dealt with poverty, family, class, illegitimacy, in the different era's they were set, but through them all ran a deep bond of love. This love, be it between a man and woman or mother and child overcame whatever life threw at them.
I really enjoyed this book and finished it in a couple of days. It gave more of a personal insight into Catherine Cookson herself and not Catherine Cookson the writer. She was dogged with so much bad health during her life that many a person would have crumbled beneath it but not her. With her deep love of her husband and his for her they faced each day together and no matter what life threw at them their strong love brought them through.
I gave the narration four stars only because I would have liked the narrator to have had a geordie accent. Nevertheless the narrator did a good job. I definitely recommend this book to all Catherine Cookson Fans. I would like audible to have more of her books in their library for I'm sure they would be enjoyed by another generation!
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- Kathleen
- 08-07-17
Interesting life story
Lovely to hear about Catherine's life story. Such a wonderful woman.
Enjoyed it very much
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- S.A.M
- 08-02-18
Fascinating!
I have never read a Catherine Cookson novel but I intend to do so right now. I would have loved to have met her and Tom.
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- M.J.S.
- 07-23-18
Great insights and brilliant narration’
Once I had accepted the non-chronological nature of these writings, I found this book totally absorbing with tremendous insight into Catherine’s life and the wonderful support and love from her husband, Tom. The performance was so good that I forgot I was listening to a narration but rather that Catherine Cookson herself was talking. A rare experience when so many books are ruined by poor narration! Highly recommended.
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- George Bear
- 11-17-17
Before I Go
Not knowing that much about the author Catherine Cookson it was very informative and heart warming to listen to her life story. I really enjoyed listening to this audio book and would highly recommend it. The Narrator was also excellent and it felt like I was actually listening to Catherine Cookson herself. 5 stars xxxxxxx
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- lizzie
- 07-23-17
Mrs Cooksons own story
What did you like most about Before I Go?
Although her life story is harrowing I found this to be a gentle insight into another part of Catherine Cooksons own life
What other book might you compare Before I Go to, and why?
Because it is autobiographical I would not compare it to other books Being a Cookson fan I found it interesting
What does Christine Rendel bring to the story that you wouldn’t experience if you had only read the book?
A good narrator who reads without trying to imitate the author
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- Anonymous User
- 06-14-22
Catherine Cookson’s lifetime
I enjoyed listening to this book and I think anyone who enjoys her books would be interested to hear about her quite hard life and background.
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- Vallane
- 08-23-19
Before I go.
Enjoyed listening to Catherine life but would have been so much better if her northern accent had been involved.
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- Idadown
- 08-23-18
A moaning about two people in her life.
I love the work of Catherine Cookson but this autobiography about the people who spoilt her life (drunken mother and a sneaky stealing associate) goes on and on. It is a shame about her ill health but this book is a good moan about things that were spoiling her life.
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- beverley willis
- 12-17-17
Book of hope
This book has all of human life. It takes you to a place of hope, trust and belief in one self.
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- John Cruickshank
- 11-07-21
Difficult but Inspiring Life Story
Catherine Cookson was my mother’s favourite author and I thought my mother had a hard life dying at the age of 49. However, Catherine suffered for most of her life and was able to overcome and achieve so much with her loyal husband by her side. After reading/listening to this autobiography it makes me grateful for my own health and appreciate life in a new light.
I was hoping to find out more about her challenges in developing her writing and painting but I guess that she covered that in her earlier autobiographies.
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- Anonymous User
- 10-22-18
Destroyed my opinion of her
Unfortunately the opportunity to get to know this woman whose novels had brought me so much joy has destroyed me good opinion of her. She is a whinging old pity me .. ungrateful blurb. If she can work her bleeding and illnesses in at any opportunity she will. Spoiled the story of her life, needs to be rewritten with a healthier approach. I was so sick of her ‘bleeding sickness ‘ that I couldn’t even feel sorry for her at the half way mark. Only listened to the end because I had paid for the book.
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- Narelle Kennedy
- 07-16-18
A classic author... enjoyable, easy listening.
Chose it for her own story.. loved the accent, and the stories.. Will now read her books :)