• If I Don't Ask

  • By: E.J. Noyes
  • Narrated by: Abby Craden
  • Length: 11 hrs and 11 mins
  • 4.9 out of 5 stars (428 ratings)

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Rebecca Keane has it all figured out. With a successful career as an Army surgeon and a fresh promotion to lieutenant colonel, she loves her life leading a surgical team. Even if that life means she’s spent years hiding her sexuality and ignoring her desires under the Army’s "don’t ask, don’t tell" policy. Then Captain Sabine Fleischer’s arrival sets off an attraction that cracks Rebecca’s carefully cultivated armor and brings about fresh complications.

As Sabine’s direct commanding officer, Rebecca knows she cannot act on her attraction, but that knowledge does nothing to squash her desires. Unable to keep her thoughts about the alluring other woman under control, Rebecca resigns herself to years of censoring her thoughts and feelings until Sabine’s time in the Army is done. She’s spent decades suppressing parts of herself for her job, so what’s a few more years?

But as Rebecca and Sabine work closely together on Army bases in Afghanistan and the States, the undeniable sparks between them begin to ignite. And despite Rebecca’s constant self-censure, her denials and her knowledge of every obstacle standing between them, her resolve crumbles with each passing day. But when the consequences of your love run deeper than just breaking one of the unbreakable rules of the military, you risk losing more than just your heart.

If I Don’t Ask is the must-hear story telling Rebecca’s side of E. J. Noyes’ best-selling Ask, Tell.

©2022 E. J. Noyes (P)2022 Audible, Inc.

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Everything we could have asked for and more!

I. LOVED. THIS. AUDIOBOOK.

It will be a surprise to absolutely no one that this book is terrific like its predecessors. As I was listening to this story - which takes place at virtually the same time as Ask, Tell but from LTC Rebecca Keane's Point of View - I kept thinking how incredibly grateful I am that EJ Noyes felt the need to revisit these characters. That readers needed to know what Rebecca was thinking and feeling during this time, when we'd only seen it from Sabine Fleischer's point of view. And it doesn't feel like a retread at all but new, fresh material.

It's amazing how much has changed since the Don't Ask, Don't Tell policy was revoked, but at the same time, I can't help but feel nervous that we may be moving into an era where it might happen all over again. And while I now feel the need to re-listen to Ask Me Again (the second in the series) it's such an incredibly painful book to experience because Noyes captures Sabine's struggle in such a deep way. She has a gift for that. Like her incredible novel Alone, these are books that leave a reader so raw that you almost have to be in the right frame of mind to go there.

Abby Craden proves time and time again that even the best books can be improved upon with the right narrator. One of her greatest talents is that she accesses, then conveys emotions so beautifully that the listener feels every single thing. From the sensual to the tormented, her work on this is just exquisite. I was completely enthralled down to the last seconds of the book. And the consummation scene? Oh my god. Oh. My. God. Just amazing.

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Masterful

Who else fell in love with Rebecca's voice on Ask, Tell? Talk about talent. The minute I saw this book was written with Rebecca's point of view, I had to get it. It's awesome to see how Sabine and Rebecca tell their own side of their love story and how each one evolved. And Abby Craden, my god. She is by far the best narrator and honestly, she makes every book better. Rebecca's voice is my favorite thus far. Abby is brilliant.

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Beautiful

Having read the series and knowing to expect certain events, I was surprised when the tears fell anew when it happened. Hearing the story told through Beck’s experience truly gave a 360 to the series. E.J. Noyes masterfully weaves the story with such description and emotion. Paired with narration by Abbey Craden this is a must listen.

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AMAZING

I knew it would be good. I knew it would be great. What I didn’t know is that this would become my favorite book! Actually, I probably knew that too. I love E.J. Noyes and she’s truly my favorite author. More so than Tolkien and all of the others. She’s right on up there with the greats. I’m happy I decided to randomly search and see if she had any upcoming books coming out soon and I caught this amazing one on the release date. It’s seriously so good and I think Bec and Sabine will always hold a place in my heart. Thank you E.J. for another amazing world to get lost in

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Loved it

Loved hearing the story from Rebecca’s point of view! I hope that there is going to be more to come about them.

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Wow!

This is a book worth devouring! The complexity and finesse Abby Craden brings to Rebecca Keane is breathtaking. This story was captivating and thrilling especially if listened to as a follow up to Ask, Tell. Very satisfied and longing for more.

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Loved it!

I love, love, loved this book. Getting Rebecca’s perspective brought the whole story into its conclusion. Knowing Rebecca Keane was human with real down to earth emotions was terrific to the 4 book series. Highly recommend this audiobook! Abby Craden is the best!

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great book, great narrator

I love this series!!! I would absolutely love to hear Donna's story next! I know this sounds silly but her voice is so intriguing. I hope this series keeps going.
Also, Abby Craden has ruined me for every other narrator. I literally cannot listen to anyone else! it's becoming an issue!

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Pretty good despite narration being overacted

The narration was overacted. I realized that Abby is often chosen to narrate lesbian romances. I just think would be better with less quaver and angst in the delivery of narration. Glad Don’t Ask Don’t Tell is over now in the military!

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Absolutely delicious!

Amazing performance by Abby Craden! The perfect characters and so amazing to see Rebecca’s point of view! Thank you EJ Noyes for giving us more depth to this amazing story.

I’m headed back to relisten to the rest of the series!

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  • Rach LH
  • 05-19-22

Rebecca Keane Rocks

Rebecca Keane is as deep and thoughtful as I thought she would be. In fact she’s more, so much more.
I’ve been waiting for this book without even knowing it. It’s technically the 4th book in the Ask, Tell series but EJ Noyes has suggested it be read as book 2 and it definitely should. This book starts a while before the 1st book. It means we get to see Rebecca and Sabine meet. We see how Rebecca felt from the start, and how Sabine acted during her 1st deployment. We get to live through that 1st surgery and 1st flag football game. We get to know what Rebecca thought of all the things Sabine beat herself up over. I love how EJ Noyes gave us more of the scenes I loved most. I loved how those scenes felt brand new because Rebecca is a deep thinker unlike Sabine the over thinker. I couldn’t get enough of Rebecca’s thoughts. How she saw Sabine and Mitch, Sabine and Amy, How the home leave happened. What she was thinking at the scrub sink, during flag football. I l wanted it all, until it came to the incident. God I had to pause it. It suddenly hit me how deeply I was going to feel it all, and my goodness I felt it. EJ Noyes did the most fantastic job of giving us Rebecca’s Turmoil. The surgery scene had me holding my breath, in the aftermath I cried and sniffled. I just wanted to hug her. This book is absolutely brilliant. Yes we know the story, but actually we don’t, just the timeline. Because the events felt by Rebecca are a completely different experience even though they’re the same. So read ‘Ask, Tell’ to find out how Sabine, the over thinker, thinks, and how she thinks Rebecca, the deep thinker thinks. Then Read ‘If I Don’t Ask’ to actually find out how Rebecca, the deep thinker thinks. And how She thinks Sabine, the over thinker, thinks. There’s a lot of thoughts 😂😂. I love that even though these books start in different places in time, they both end in the same spot 😍😍 (with a tiny bit extra)

Abby Craden does the most fantastic job at bringing Rebecca Keane to life. For me this is Abby’s best work. Perfect

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  • Meg
  • 08-02-22

Brilliant.

When I realised this book was going to be available I was so happy. Lt. Colonel Rebecca Keane is one of my favourite characters. I wasn't disappointed when I read the book. It was fascinating to find out more about her, her background , her friends outside the army and the struggles she had once Sabine pinged on her radar. Needless to say the narration by AC was spot on and greatly enhanced my enjoyment.

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  • Mr. Anthony D. Bateman
  • 06-26-22

worth buying

alternative to book one from rebeccas' point of view. YES it's worth buying, I actually got really into the book, yes I knew the story, but then I didn't, fascinating how the same two people react, and I prefer rebeccas' character.
I hope "if the shoe fits" will be on audible soon, instant buy.

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  • Skylark
  • 06-12-22

omg

not only do I love this series, I must say that I think, this has ro be the best of the 4. it was good to hear it from Rebecca's side.

mine only grip about all 4 books is that they didn't waith for Abby Cradon to be available to read the 3rd book.

I hope if you do listen to them you enjoy them as much as I have

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  • Chilling in Cheshire
  • 06-10-22

Just WOW!!!!!

Another outstanding book. I really didn't think the 'Ask, Tell' couldn't be improved uoon, but E J Noyes has done it again.

As for narration, there aren't enough superlatives to describe Abby Craden. The Noyes/Craden combo knocked it out of the park AGAIN!!!!!

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  • Kaz B
  • 06-08-22

Superb

Simply put……..Superb.
I love this series and the narration and hearing Bec’s and Sabine’s perfect voices again was magical.
I did not want it to end.
E.J- thanks for such another superb book.
We need more of Bec and Sabine… pretty please!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 06-05-22

Necessary and beautiful

Thank you EJ Noyes for this book.
Gives you both sides of the story and it is beautiful, sad, painful and necessary.
You get to know both MC on a deeper level and how this is one of the most beautiful love stories.

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  • A.H.
  • 05-31-22

utterly fantastic

a perfect second pov for an already astounding story, not a book you can miss, a must read

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  • Joanna-Marie
  • 05-28-22

Loved hearing Rebecca's side!

After listening to all the others in this series;
Ask, Tell.
Ask me Again.
If the Shoe Fits.

I loved going back to the very beginning and hearing Rebecca's side of things! It's an absolute must read/hear. You could even start with this book and move to the others.

Abby Craden was fabulous as always .. hope she does the next E.J Noyes book!

Also hope E.J decides to write another in this series .. perhaps a few years after If the Shoe Fits!

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  • Mrs CJ
  • 05-27-22

Absolutely Brilliant

Phenomenally written and narrated. Make sure you have listened to the previous books in the series to get the full picture.

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 06-06-22

Brilliant!

I love this series from EJ Notes and am so glad that we get to read/listen to Rebecca's side of the story. I don't think writing a second book running over same to similar events, from a different characters POV could work for just any plotline or even any author...So what Noyes has done here is just brilliant!! The story is told from Rebecca's POV and is just as engaging and disarming as the original book, which is told from Sabine's POV. Both MC are SO intriguing and loveable that you can't help but want to know more about them! Abby Craden's voice and narration just brings this story to life and keeps you mesmerised! it was her voice of Rebecca that got me hooked on to her as a narrator (and also on to Noyes books overall!). So I loved getting to listen to a whole book, dedicated to Rebecca and her thoughts and actions regarding Sabine! Theirs is one of the best love stories I've read and I love how the series doesn't involve unnecessary angst or unnecessary anything quite frankly. It has just the right amount of reflection and depth balanced with lightness and story progression! I honestly can't say enough about this book and the series as a whole! Was upset that Yana's story wasn't narrated by Craden but even that book was too good to pass up despite this (bk3 was top notch!). I had one thought though as I was listening to Rebecca, and it was, it would've been nice to have this book start further into Bec and Sabs relationship so we could get a glimpse of what went on during bk2 or even during Yana's story...but if another book from Bec's POV is coming out then obviously my point is a moot one.

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  • bethany
  • 05-25-22

Absolute Magic!

I have no doubt this review will not do this story justice, I may come back and update at a later date. Ask Tell was the first WLW book I ever listened to. Little did I know that no other story/narrator would ever come close. When I heard 'If I Don't Ask' was coming, it was like Christmas morning. I absolutely LOVED this story. I knew I would but wow! I didn't see how fragile, sexy, intuitive and nervous Rebecca was. She certainly hides it well. She is so receptive to Sabine or maybe it's as if Sabine isn't as discreet with her hiding her emotions. I loved the familiarity of the story while also learning so much. I loved hearing of her friendship. I felt her heartbreak, desire, strength, fears, love and frustrations. Brilliant writing. I feel like Rebecca and Sabine are part of me somehow. This is so much more than a love story. Thank you E.

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  • Kindle Customer
  • 05-19-22

Master stroke by Noyes

Wow, what an awesome idea by E.J. Noyes to rewrite Ask, Tell from Rebecca's POV. As other reviewers have said, even though the main plot points are the same, hearing it from Rebecca made the story a totally new experience. And like the other books in the series, those powerful first person thoughts (especially being vocalised by Abby Craden) made me experience intense personal emotions in a way I have never felt when reading books before. I will definitely go back and read all 3 books again.