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A heartbreaking and hilarious memoir by iCarly and Sam & Cat star Jennette McCurdy about her struggles as a former child actor—including eating disorders, addiction, and a complicated relationship with her overbearing mother—and how she retook control of her life.

Jennette McCurdy was six years old when she had her first acting audition. Her mother’s dream was for her only daughter to become a star, and Jennette would do anything to make her mother happy. So she went along with what Mom called “calorie restriction,” eating little and weighing herself five times a day. She endured extensive at-home makeovers while Mom chided, “Your eyelashes are invisible, okay? You think Dakota Fanning doesn’t tint hers?” She was even showered by Mom until age sixteen while sharing her diaries, email, and all her income.

In I’m Glad My Mom Died, Jennette recounts all this in unflinching detail—just as she chronicles what happens when the dream finally comes true. Cast in a new Nickelodeon series called iCarly, she is thrust into fame. Though Mom is ecstatic, emailing fan club moderators and getting on a first-name basis with the paparazzi (“Hi Gale!”), Jennette is riddled with anxiety, shame, and self-loathing, which manifest into eating disorders, addiction, and a series of unhealthy relationships. These issues only get worse when, soon after taking the lead in the iCarly spinoff Sam & Cat alongside Ariana Grande, her mother dies of cancer. Finally, after discovering therapy and quitting acting, Jennette embarks on recovery and decides for the first time in her life what she really wants.

Told with refreshing candor and dark humor, I’m Glad My Mom Died is an inspiring story of resilience, independence, and the joy of shampooing your own hair.

©2022 Waffle Cone, Inc. All rights reserved. (P)2022 Simon & Schuster, Inc. All rights reserved.

Interview: Jennette McCurdy Reveals Her Shockingly Fraught Relationship With Her Mother

'My world was oriented around this narrative that my mom knows what's best for me.'
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Everything I thought it would be and more

I knew that this book would discuss the childhood acting industry and Jennette’s mom, but there was so much more to this book.
It truly does an amazing job breaking down the emotions and thought processes of a little girl who grew up in an abusive environment that she thought was normal. A person who she loved and admired she later learned never had her best interest in mind. There are so many people this book will help and that will be able to relate to even one part of Jennette McCurdy’s story.
I can’t recommend reading this book enough! And I’m beyond happy that the audio version is read by Jennette herself!

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Unexpectedly poor narration

The book is good and I highly recommend it to anyone. It’s among the best memoirs I have read- and it really doesn’t feel right when a memoir is not read by the author. However, while I love Jennette McCurdy’s voice, she often mumbles and speaks rapidly as if she’s rushing through this book. There were times I could not understand her, and I don’t want to slow a book down. If she had just slowed it down a bit and spoken more clearly, the narration could have been excellent.

I honestly want to keep this book but I am finding myself reading along with the ebook so I don’t miss what she’s saying. I’m only a few chapters in so if I continue to find I can’t make out her mumbling I might be unable to finish and will have to stick with only the ebook or a hard copy. Hopefully it gets better- and again, I really do love Jennette.

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intense, painful, but cathartic

this is the first time I’ve ever pre-ordered on audible, because I was just so impatient for this to be released. I knew some of the details of it beforehand, I’ve pretty much watched/listened to all the podcasts from Jennette, either her own or the ones she’s guested on, but the book was what I was really impatient for.
For me, the best part was that she was the one reading it. Given the subject matter, I’d have understood if she had chosen not to, but I hope maybe it was a bit cathartic for her to be the one reading and getting it out.
I relate a bit too much to some of the key issues she discusses, and I’m working through them myself. Reading this book was painful for that reason.
I finished the audiobook in one night. Afterwards, the next morning, I called my sister and we had a crazy long conversation about our parents and childhood, and it was probably the best painful thing I’ve ever done.

this audiobook is great for so many reasons, but it also helps to feel closer to the real hidden stories of someone we pretty much grew up alongside. knowing she had similar struggles as my siblings and myself, and that she felt just as isolated, especially in the spotlight, is sad, yes.. but it builds a weird sense of “shared trauma” for me that makes me feel a bit less alone.

that said, a lot of this book is definitely very intense, so make sure you are mentally safe and prepared to read.
especially if you have any issues with some of the things she talks about. maybe plan some self care for afterwards. get some hot tea, listen to relaxing music, that sort of thing.

I don’t regret getting this book, and will probably at some point listen again when I’m ready, as one of the best things that’s helped me is hearing from others who have gone through similar things. admittedly, I haven’t done much acting, but I related about the writing parts and growing up constantly trying to read/predict the volatility of people around me.

so thank you for sharing this with us, Jennette.

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amazing!!

absolutely amazingly written and performed. Jennette's sense of humor and voice are very strong and her ability to act really enhanced the listening experience. her story was truly heartbreaking and there were several times I physically recoiled at the things her mother and "the creator" did to her. the ending was inspiring and hopeful and the final chapter is a fantastic conclusion to this memoir. hope to see more writing from Jennette!!

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To Jeanette McCurdy

I have loved iCarly ever since it came out. I have also enjoyed the character of Sam. However, I don't think about meeting my favorite actresses or actors. I'm not obsessed with their personal lives or feel the need to follow them around.

For me I'm okay with watching them on the screen and following their careers as far as what movies and shows they are in. That is as far invested in them as I get.

I am also a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of latter-day saints. I somewhat can relate to the feelings that she had with her mom and wanting to please her. As well as her mom not being healthy and that having a great impact on her. My story is not the same but some of my feelings are.

I want to apologize to Jeanette McCurdy. I did see you as Sam and not as who you really are. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for sharing your truth. Your reminder to us (your fans and anyone else reading your book) that you are a person who deserves to grow up and become who you want to be is a truth that needed to be told.

Congratulations making great progress with your life. I'm rooting for you. 🎉🥰

You are an amazing writer!!! I loved your narration of your book.

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Loved

I’ve never listened to an audio book- or even picked up a book in a good while, but as someone with mommy issues this was a must. Thank you for sharing your story, I haven’t felt this much validation in awhile. All the love

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Powerful, vulnerable, and authentic. Happy for her

Jennette has earned this raw and real story from her side. Arrest Dan Snyder.

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shes astonishing

Jennette's charisma and poise is truly unmatched. The story telling and the way she paints the pictures of each scene is amazing. highly recommend

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heart wrenching, wonderful

I have been waiting for this book to come out since it was announced. It did not disappoint, it was relatable and shocking and to hear what someone i adored in my childhood was going through the same things I was. It was beautiful to see her grow throughout the book, I am also glad my mom died. I’m happy for her and I hope she continues to grow and do what makes her happy.

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Not bad, but not what I expected

This one is hard to listen to if you have any experience with abuse but never gets too deep into that.

Performance: I expected the performance to have a bit more emotion to it, as often books like this read by the author have a bit more life to them. However, this was quite flat throughout.

Book: Throughout the years, Jennette has been very open about her life and the issues she had with her mother. For the most part, that is all this book is, so I was a bit shocked that outside of a small mention at the beginning little is said about her accounts or earnings. For someone like myself that has heard the sound bites but not much else I wish that would have been addressed.

Additionally, the wrap up at the end felt devoid of an answer on how she has gone from doing ANYTHING to appease her overbearing mother to being happy she passed. Is this not the title? Yes, we know what she did but the work to break her hold is really never touched on. This could have been a story of how it happened, the mourning of a loss, and the realization of what crap luck has befallen Jennette but how she has grown. Instead, it is a disjointed stream of this horrible event to that horrible event and not much else.

Maybe the work to deal with this is in book 2? I guess we'll see.

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  • 08-11-22

Heartwrenching

The raw honesty of this memoir made me have to pause it several times to just stop and process it all. Jeanette's decision to share her life and its trauma with the world is one that can only be met with respect for the strength she has carried throughout. Her narration at times might feel flatter than you expect of an audiobook, but as the auditory experience of someone retelling their trauma, I think less enthusiasm is completely understandable. Truly a moving listen.

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  • sammy mackay
  • 08-15-22

Absolutely incredible

“I’m glad my mom died” is a beautifully written story, honest in ways a lot of people are afraid to be. I’ve been a fan of Jeanette Mccurdy since I was little and to hear her story, from her own perspective how she wants us to know it was a wonderful thing, highly recommend.

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incredible

finished it in one day! couldn't put it down it was so raw and honest

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  • 08-11-22

Pretty good!

Jennette has a long story to tell and finds a way to fit a lot of it into this short book. I'm not sure what I was expecting, but it was a good read.
I'm not sure I'd recommend to some people due to the slurs, ableist tendencies, and constant talks of eating disorders. There were some stories I was hoping to hear more about, but this book is very centered around childhood and family moments which help us understand her life better. Must have been difficult yet cathartic to have written this book! Well done Jennette!

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  • Shannon
  • 08-16-22

Abuse from love

Perfect example of how someone can experience abuse their whole life while believing they are loved. The abuser believing they’re doing everything out of love. Sometimes that love is suffocating and dangerous. Candidly written, beautifully read.

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  • 08-16-22

very good

very well written and narrated. BUT her eating disorder struggles are described in detail and I would really really not recommend reading/listening to this book if you think you might be triggered

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  • Anonymous User
  • 08-14-22

Phenomenal!

I've had a narcissist mother as well, and everything Jennette had described - i went through myself. I have never read/listened to a book that I have related so much on so many levels.

Thank you so much, Jennette, for this amazing yet horrible story. Thank you so much for hard work that everybody had put into this book who was working on it. It means a lot!

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  • Eva
  • 10-04-22

Heartbreaking but with humor

A sad story about the complicated relationship between mother and daughter. Heartbreakingly tragic but told with dark humor, which I imagine is the best way to try and unravel such a childhood, Jennette is a fantastic writer and I hope she finds comfort from the positive reviews and admiration we are sending her way.

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  • Lizzy Brown
  • 10-04-22

sad read but great listen!

loved her story, very cruel what she endured, but some woman now!! I wish her well in her future

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  • 10-04-22

An honest expression of struggle and strength

I was too old for Icarly but I grew up on Nik shows like Drake and Josh. It's upsetting to think the kids we grew up wanting to be went through so much pressure.
Jennette does a great job of describing things firstly through a child's eyes and through the various stages of her life.
I grew up with a narcissistic mother and experienced abuse in a dysfunctional family. I also became a perfectionist over-achiever. I worked as an events manager and finally had a breakdown, I was addicted to opiates and had an Ed. This memoir was relatable on so many levels and it's easy to listen to, made better as it's narrated by Jennette. There are elements of humour that make the heavy subject easier to get through. Overall I'd highly recommend thus book and I'm glad Jennette found her voice.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 08-12-22

Couldn’t stop listening!

I have never ever finished an audiobook. Until today. A MUST read/listen. This book was incredibly honest and equally heartbreaking. Written and read by a strong individual who truly suffered without knowledge.

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  • 08-11-22

This is an important book.

What a beautifully honest and well told account of a complicated life, told by someone who has had enough time or therapy be able to tell it with grace and perspective.
This book provides an important insight into the trappings of child stardom, but more importantly into narcissistic parental abuse and eating disorders.
Despite the heavy subject matter covered in this book, Jennette McCurdy tells it in a way that feels like sitting down to talk to a friend, it's warm and sweet and funny and sad.

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  • 08-09-22

4/5

pretty engaging, I read it in one sitting. my only complaint would be I didn't love the narration. but certainly an important and well told story... I could resonate with a lot of it. I loved seeing Jennette's self-respect finally flourish towards the end. it gives me a little hope to see someone make it out the other side of childhood abuse.

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  • Leanne
  • 09-30-22

mums are hard work.

This is a great piece of work, well written, relatable in themes (if not specifics).
if you had/have a difficult relationship with your mum you will feel this in your bones.
I finished it in 3 days, couldn't stop.

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  • Franklin
  • 09-29-22

Incredibly moving

I don’t remember the last time I found myself glued to an audiobook like this! I finished listening to it within 2 days! The storytelling is light but shines a light on so much! Would highly recommend the listen.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 09-29-22

So raw and real

I was not expecting this book to be so incredibly raw Jennette really just air’s everything out in a way that takes you a back I’ve read a lot of celebrity books but non like this, where it feels so real raw and honest. I have a completely new respect for Jennette and the experiences and trauma that she faced through her life. Thank you for sharing your story.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 09-28-22

Must read

What an epic combination of trauma and humor. So worth a listen or read!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 09-26-22

Honestly

I laughed, I cried. I am happy her mum died.

Heartwrenching but amazing. Thank you.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 10-04-22

Relatable and honest

I think my favourite thing is the honest nature of this book. I don't always feel sympathetic (although much of the time I do). It's not a book that demands I feel sorry for Jennette in every moment. Some of the writing is jarring but that's part of what makes it feel honest.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 10-04-22

Strong, Brave, Real

loved it, very raw and real. I felt like I was in her shoes trying to navigate childhood with an unprecedented amount of struggles placed against me. It also opened my eyes to some of my own ED issues. I applaude Jennette for being so vulnerable in her sharing without being nasty to those who harmed her. that is strength.

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