• The Opposite of Butterfly Hunting

  • The Tragedy and the Glory of Growing Up: A Memoir
  • By: Evanna Lynch
  • Narrated by: Evanna Lynch
  • Length: 13 hrs and 2 mins
  • Unabridged Audiobook
  • Categories: Biographies & Memoirs, Women
  • 4.9 out of 5 stars (9 ratings)
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Publisher's Summary

Gradually, I began to feel this dawning awareness that womanhood was coming for me, that it was looming inevitably, and it didn't feel safe.... While those around me tried to expedite it, simulate it, exacerbate it, I tried to strangle it.

A raw and compelling new memoir from actress and activist Evanna Lynch about the battle between perfection and creativity. 

Evanna Lynch has long been viewed as a role model for recovering anorexics, and the story of her casting as Luna Lovegood in the Harry Potter films has reached almost mythic proportions. Yet even after recovery, there remains a conflict at the very core of her being: a bitter struggle between the familiar, anesthetising pursuit of perfection and the desire to fully and fearlessly embrace her creativity. In her memoir, Evanna confronts all the complexities and contradictions within herself and reveals how she overcame a life-threatening eating disorder, began to conquer her self-hate and confronted her fear of leaving the neatness and safety of girlhood for the unpredictable journey of being a woman. 

Revealing a startlingly accomplished voice, Evanna uses her book to delve into the very heart of a woman's relationship with her own body. Unwilling to let the darkness of her eating disorder eclipse her dreams, but afraid to fully release the certainty and safety of self-destruction, Evanna explores the pivotal moments and choices in her life that led her down the path of creativity and dreaming and away from the empty pursuit of perfection, and reaches towards acceptance of the wild, sensual and unpredictable reality of womanhood. This is a story of the tragedy and the glory of growing up, of mourning girlhood and stepping into the unknown and how that act of courage is the most creatively liberating thing a woman can do.

©2021 Evanna Lynch (P)2021 Headline Publishing Group Ltd

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A book with meaning

This is a memoir who says a lot about the author and still leaves you wanting to know more. To meet and talk to her, to debate, to get inspired. I hope Evana sees that she went from being ’the opposite of Luna’ (as she says, I don’t necessarily agree) as a child to being Luna as a grown up. I just love her and her courage!

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  • Ashleigh
  • 12-11-21

Incredible.

It is a tough subject to discuss but this is the most I have ever related to a book before in so many ways. Amazingly told and narrated. I don’t usually listen to audible for long stints at a time but this had me gripped! Evanna’s nature really shines through. Highly recommend!

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  • Muse
  • 12-04-21

Loved It!

Beautiful account of growing up with all the problems that go with it, especially with mental health issues thrown in the mix. I don't have an eating disorder but I've got mental health issues and I could relate to so much of this. Please write more Evanna and I loved hearing you read it!

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  • Libby Darlow
  • 11-25-21

Revelation, self compassion and validation of my teenage self

I feel like this book wiped clean a foggy mirror I’ve been glowering in for years, and showed me all these wounds I’ve been doggedly ignoring and rolling my eyes at. I feel like someone has recognised my pain and validated it and in doing so given me better hope for moving forward to something else.

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  • Mr Alfie
  • 11-19-21

Currently inpatient for anorexia

I’m currently inpatient for anorexia nervosa and this book has helped me so much. It’s given me insight into my own battle with anorexia through her own story. I would highly recommend to those suffering and their loved ones.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 01-01-22

Phenomenal

I am not a Harry Potter fan but was aware of Evanna Lynch as I am also from Ireland. I read a snippet of this book on the RTE website and its honest and realness really got under my skin.

I just finished the audio book that I download as a result of that snippet I read. This book has left me speechless , Evanna has actually given me insight into what happens people with anorexia.

The book is more than just the anorexia - it’s about Evannas life and struggles but I think they have a universal application regardless of whether you have struggled with anorexia. It’s so much more that just a book about an eating disorder , it’s about self discovery, finding your place in the world and all the other maddening challenges we face as we grow and mature.

The writing is delicious and dense. Evannas descriptions are so tactile and vivid. She is an eminently talented writer , a honest and realistic person and , after listening to this, I know she is a beautiful soul. I know I will come back to this book again and again. It’s so beautiful and I admire her being so frank . I also applaud her family for supporting her and allowing her to tell her story that includes them. Having the author narrate it brings a further authenticity to this book.

A very vital book for many reasons. Thank you Evanna.

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  • mandy
  • 12-11-21

Brutally but beautifully honest

I adored this book, Evanna Lynch never fails to deliver anything but her truth and I am so grateful for it. Up there with the best of the best for me in terms of charting an uneasy relationship with one’s own identity and mental health.

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  • Sadie
  • 11-15-21

Stunning

A brilliant, beautiful, and brutal exploration of growing up in search of meaning. Evanna Lynch is a spellbinding writer and performs with the honesty and sincerity befitting the subject. I marathoned this in 2 days and have been drifting around in a daze thinking about it. This gave me a lot to think about.

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  • Clara
  • 10-20-21

Brutally honest with shockingly hilarious parts that had me laughing in public like a maniac.

It’s so refreshing to have someone be so unapologetically honest about their own flaws, insecurities, and struggles. I realised some of my own bizarre thought processes maybe aren’t so bizarre after all- we just don’t speak openly enough about these topics.

I didn’t expect so much of the book to be about Harry Potter but I loved learning about the casting process of Luna and how it was fated to someone so dedicated to the role.

This was such a brave book to publish and I hope it reaches the people who need to hear they aren’t alone in their struggles. It’ll have them in deep contemplation one moment then bursting out in laughter the next.

Hope to read more from you about your life in the future Evanna!

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  • Andy T
  • 01-07-22

The rise of the wee Phoenix

This young woman has climbed out of the land of desolation and into the promised land - kind of.

A candid write that’s a bittersweet autobiography - for many, it will be more, much more than an autobio - with gentleness and wit, she has written a book that will help numerous people.

TBH her narration is so good and her voice so delightful; if she read a phone book, it would be a joy to listen to.

My ex had anorexia, I've sent her a copy.

This is not a dowdy book - it's got the magical touch that Luna would be proud of.

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  • Natasha Pearce
  • 12-02-21

Brilliant

This book was a wonderful listen and Evanna read it beautifully. So interesting to hear about Evannas life and struggles

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  • not telling
  • 11-13-21

Heart breaking beautiful

One of the most heartbreakingly sad, wonderfully uplifting and funny story's that I have enjoyed in a long time.

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  • Kelsey Horne
  • 01-07-22

Thoughtful and authentic

An honest and wise account. Created to help not hinder those that suffer from this mental illlness.

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  • Ellen Crossman
  • 01-02-22

so inspiring

Absolutely incredible cannot recommend enough. I was completely captivated by evannas words and thoroughly grateful that she chose to write this book

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  • Lisa M. Stibbe
  • 12-17-21

Thank you for sharing your story Evanna!

This was a compelling story! I was unaware of Evanna's struggles, but I am a huge fan of the Harry Potter world and especially Luna Lovegood!

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 12-06-21

I've never felt more understood

Lynch captures the decades long struggles of what it means to grow up and accept yourself (or hopefully one day cherish it). She was able to describe feelings that I have not been able to acknowledge for too many years. I'm recommending this book for anyone who has struggled with self care, knows someone who has, or even anyone wanting to further understand perspectives of those around them.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 10-28-21

Captivating corners of an impressionable mind

Not normally much of a consumer of non-fiction, thanks to my admiration of Evanna as an actor, activist, and all around human, I thought to give this a go as my first full audiobook ever after she mentioned that it was best heard, not read.
Every spare minute I had, I excitedly flicked back over to Audible to take in Evanna's soothing voice, deeply moving story, and, simply, gripping way with words.
This book is for anyone struggling with the idea of perfection in their daily lives, or witnessing someone struggling with it themselves. In other words, it's for everyone. Bravo.