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Tweak
- Growing Up on Methamphetamines
- Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
- Length: 12 hrs and 17 mins
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Publisher's Summary
Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise.
In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself.
Critic Reviews
"Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections….Endlessly memorable." (AudioFile Magazine)
"Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were." (Publishers Weekly)
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- David
- 11-15-10
Painful Journey
I read David Sheff‘s book Beautiful Boy about living through his son’s Meth addiction and throughout the read, I realized that it would be great to read the son’s perspective, so I picked up a copy of Tweak by Nic Sheff.
Beautiful Boy was an incredible raw book of a parent’s journey through a child’s addiction, but I wasn’t at all prepared for the mental picture that accompanied the writings of the Nic Sheff. There is a raw, sort of, unedited perspective that is written with the mindset that the end result will be death, not life.
Tweak picks up about half way through Nic’s meth addiction – after he finds himself cut off from his parents financially, turning tricks to make ends meet so that he can score his next round of blow. He talks about doing drugs that range from marijuana to meth (his drug of choice) to heroine. Not only does he have an addiction to drugs, he also has an addiction to alcohol and sex. This book is written from the perspective of an early 20-something that seems to only care about his needs.
Much like Beautiful Boy, he highlights parts of his life that uses a day format. He talks about his stints in sobriety, some lasting as long as 18 months before the pull and allure of the drugs drag him deeper and deeper into his addiction. He lies, cheats, steals and leaves one of his girlfriends at a market for four hours while he goes to steal something from his mother’s house and then subsequently collapses in her garage.
The vividness of his account is extraordinary. When he goes into a building to score more drugs, you can feel the emotions he felt – your heart rate increases when uncertainty surrounds. This book is much more raw and unfiltering of his experiences then Beautiful Boy. This book takes you deep inside his thoughts, his actions, the words that flow from his mouth in a series of explictives. His candor in sharing these experiences is inviting, but you should be prepared for the experience.
I recommend this book, but I reco
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- Belinda
- 11-03-09
Life lesson
This is an amazing book after his dad's. I finished listening to it in several days. Although I was haunted most of the time by his up and down, I was really touched by his extreme honesty. It is a true achievement to anybody to publish a good book, and it's even harder for somebody finished a book while struggling with drug addition. Wish Nic can really get his life back. With his talent and his conscience deep in his heart, he deserves a much better life than the one controlled by drug, and his family deserves a better life, too.
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- Stefani Hyman
- 02-10-17
Amazing Memoir
This book helped me see things from an addicts perspective.
My brother had been addicted to opiates for many years before tragically losing his life. The struggles he faced were so similar to Nic's in this story.
This was one of my brother's favorite books and he kept asking me to read it. I am so glad I did.
The writing, along with the narration had me feeling each moment as if I were there with the characters. I loved it!
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- Jay Quintana
- 04-20-16
A well-written cautionary tale that's too long
A promising young man grows up with everything -- especially parental love -- and still, his life goes off the rails because of his addiction/illness. Nic is one of those people who should not drink or use drugs, period. It feels like he took it up because, well, young people experiment. In other words, I don't think anyone could've prevented him from going down the path he did. This is a book that parents and their teenage children should read and talk about. Having said this, it's repetitive at times and the writer uses "whatever" far too often. A third of this book could've been edited out and nothing would've been lost.
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- pixi
- 04-05-19
Trigger warning
This book has tons of triggers for those in recovery, but it's very honest and open.
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- pants
- 06-09-13
I identified with almost every word...
this book is amazing!!! so many times throughout the book i felt like i was listening to myself telling my own story... i can't wait to read his next one!
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- RH
- 03-05-10
EXCELLENT--SHOULD BE REQUIRED READING
This book should be required reading for Jr. High school kids, and again in high school. A great insight to the life an addict leads; I found it fascinating. He was very candid and the material raw, which made the unbelievable very believable. I do however, recommend reading "Beautiful Boy" by David Sheff (Nic's dad) first, as the insight from his perspective made Nic's perspective more "real"--some of the stuff was just so unbelievable; I can't imagine living like he did. I learned a lot about that way of life, as fortunately, I've never been there myself. I think every kid should read this book to see what "glory" is in drugs, the tragedies in getting high, the work involved in coming clean and the hardships it creates on your body. Unimaginable.
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- knothdurft19
- 03-26-08
Riviting
I couldn't stop listening. I read Beautiful Boy first and was fascinated with Nic. I listened to all 12 hours in less than a week. Gritty, honest and yet hopeful. I haven't been so touched by a book in years.
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- Stephanie
- 05-20-08
Tweak....i loved it!
I was so sad when it was over. The Mom in me wants to keep track of Nic and make sure he is clean and safe. I loved Beautiful Boy too. Both were great from beginning to end.
15 people found this helpful
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- Book and Movie Lover
- 05-20-08
Drugs - the most frustrating issue in our society
I read this after I read Nic's father's book Beautiful Boy by David Scheff. This book was a good accounting, from an addict's perspective of life as an addict. At times I wanted to reach through my headphones and strangle this young author and just yell STOP! Don't do that to your family. Having read his father's account of the agony the family went through and then to read the account of the relative lack of agony the addict went through (sorry, my perspective as a parent) totally by choice was very frustrating. Drugs account for multi-generational problems in our society and if rehab has such a low percentage of success (10-20%???) then what are we to do? For years we have heard that enforcement isn't the answer, treatment is the answer .... But after reading these two books it's obvious that treatment is elusive.
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- Amazon Customer
- 05-16-19
A detailed insight. Chilling.
Wonderfully narrated, a real showpiece. Well done! Great insight for those who love an addict, but get yourself a 12-step programme to help save yourself, learn about the disease, about your issues and to recover enough to be there to support the addict if s/he manages to find their way. I wish I could have done more.
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- Maverick
- 08-06-18
Baring / Bearing it all
Nic Sheff does exactly that in this brutally honest memoir which compliments his father's own memoir - Beautiful Boy.
Whilst sometimes appearing a spoiled wasting brat - Nic Sheff also manages to bare his soul in this tumultuous memoir. At times rambling and undoubtedly written in maybe more detail than it is reasonable to expect - Nic nevertheless manages to ask us to look into our own imperfect selves before casting any kind of judgement.
I for one am pleased he seems to have kicked his 'past' demeanors firmly into the past where they belong and hope he has the strength to maintain sobriety for his own sake as well as for his family's sake.
Compelling!
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- Anonymous User
- 03-24-22
beautifully narrated
the way this story is told by Paul makes it so alive and tangible, I love his narration. thank you!
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- Sigrin
- 02-13-22
Addiction hell
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It’s a rather depressing spiral of addiction.that at the end of the day is not pleasant listening.
So not sure I would recommend this book unless your in a happy place.
Also, I would not have spent a credit on it, but it was free so nothing to lose.
I admire that Nic Sheff has written his emotional roller coaster journey.
I only hope that by writing his experiences down, it has given Nic the strength to continue his onward battle to stay clean.
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- Amazon Customer
- 11-28-21
For anyone who has ever struggled with loving themselves
Written in first person present tense, the story picks you up and places you behind Nic’s eyes. In his head, you see the thought processes unfold as he justified his actions to himself, and the confusion of trying to do the right thing. Nic is so very relatable. Utterly moving and tragic, the book gave me insight into my own struggles with self love and being a 20-something searching for acceptance.
Excellently performed, the characters came to life.
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- Kindle Customer
- 11-12-21
Very Telling
very interesting read. especially the peek behind the curtain into the real Hollywood and its deep problem with hidden drug addictions in plain sight.
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- Аmazon Customer
- 08-16-21
Love it.
I found this book so insightful. So many of the things discussed here really had me reflecting on addictions, on sex work, on the shame cycle. 100% recommend.
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- Amazon Customer
- 03-17-21
Great book
Really great book. Really delved deep into the world of addiction. A must read. X
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- GetToIt
- 02-10-21
Touching, beautifully written, teary
Really loved this book and equally it’s narrator, Paul Michael Garcia, who fluctuated brilliantly between characters without sounding like he was forcing an accent. Nic’s story is so interesting and his emotions so believable. I felt so sad for his parents having to constantly put their lives on hold through every relapse - they obviously did their very best to raise him so creatively and articulately. LA life certainly sounds full of total shallow pricks!
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- Anthony M
- 04-15-18
Wonderfully detailed and Intimate
Sensitive traumatic account authentically written and narrated.
Particularly intrigued by his treatment and its wider relevance.
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- RB
- 03-12-19
meth heads shouldn't write books
this book was so boring. i was foolish to expect more from a former chronic meth head.
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- Anonymous User
- 12-13-18
Loved Beautiful Boy. Found this too full on
I loved the book Beautiful Boy. ‘Tweak’, however, I found too graphic and unnecessarily detailed. I get explanations of how bad meth addiction is needed, but sex scenes and explanations of how long and how much sweat was involved was off putting. I found the language off putting too. This level of detail isn’t needed to understand how bad the meth culture is.
Loving an ice addict is a huge part of my own story and recommend ‘beautiful boy’ but I couldn’t get through this one. I may have a break from it and try again.
Some parts are well written-explaining the disease of addiction and its impact and i could relate to the desperation of addiction, but some parts the detail was hard to stomach. I love the author’s bravery in sharing and it has potential to be educational and emotionally impacting, it was just too much information at times. Further editing was needed and it’s a shame that as if the graphic nature was excluded it could be studied in high schools.
The narrator’s voice was off putting too.
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- Ike Bain
- 11-24-21
An inspiring story of survival from addiction
A heartfelt personal story of addiction and recovery. The author writes with such brutal, descriptive honesty that you feel you are going through his journey with him. I couldn’t stop listening, the narrator did a perfect job too.
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- joanna
- 10-06-20
Exactly as it needed to be
I read some reviews of this book before deciding to sign up for Audible so I could listen to it, and many reviewers said the book is far too graphic and they were turned off by this. I didn't find this at all, not in the slightest, in fact as an ex addict myself I felt Nic could have added much more detail to certain scenes but was maybe prohibited from doing so by his editors. Extra detail wasn't needed though, it was raw and honest and even vulnerable. I found it triggering but also cathartic, and which surprised me, I wasn't aware I still had so much emotion buried inside me regarding my previous life.
If you're a current or ex addict this book will inspire you to look deeply inward and to try, try, try again. Because as Nic says in the book, relapse is part of recovery.
If you're not an addict and are questioning if you want that level of detail, rest assured there are many other beautiful layers of story and scenery in the book other than drug use, its just that the drug use is what gets focused on as its so unfamiliar to many readers.
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- Anna
- 05-07-18
Interesting story, poor writing
I absolutely enjoyed the story line, the writers journey/struggle with addiction was absolutely insane to me. Falling in and out of addiction for so long and following the ups and downs had me hooked.
However, the writing is pretty horrible. Most of his sentences ending in...or whatever, and everything, and stuff, etc. made me feel like I was reading a book written by an elementary school student.
I would recommend his fathers book “beautiful boy” by David sheff over this book as it shows the fathers perspective with much better writing.