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Unbearable Lightness
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Publisher's Summary
“I didn’t decide to become anorexic. It snuck up on me disguised as a healthy diet, a professional attitude. Being as thin as possible was a way to make the job of being an actress easier . . .”
Portia de Rossi weighed only 82 pounds when she collapsed on the set of the Hollywood film in which she was playing her first leading role. This should have been the culmination of all her years of hard work - first as a child model in Australia, then as a cast member of one of the hottest shows on American television. On the outside she was thin and blond, glamorous and successful. On the inside, she was literally dying.
In this searing, unflinchingly honest book, Portia de Rossi captures the complex emotional truth of what it is like when food, weight, and body image take priority over every other human impulse or action. She recounts the elaborate rituals around eating that came to dominate hours of every day, from keeping her daily calorie intake below 300 to eating precisely measured amounts of food out of specific bowls and only with certain utensils. When this wasn’t enough, she resorted to purging and compulsive physical exercise, driving her body and spirit to the breaking point.
Even as she rose to fame as a cast member of the hit television shows Ally McBeal and Arrested Development, Portia alternately starved herself and binged, all the while terrified that the truth of her sexuality would be exposed in the tabloids. She reveals the heartache and fear that accompany a life lived in the closet, a sense of isolation that was only magnified by her unrelenting desire to be ever thinner. With the storytelling skills of a great novelist and the eye for detail of a poet, Portia makes transparent as never before the behaviors and emotions of someone living with an eating disorder.
From her lowest point, Portia began the painful climb back to a life of health and honesty, falling in love with and eventually marrying Ellen DeGeneres, and emerging as an outspoken and articulate advocate for gay rights and women’s health issues.
In this remarkable and beautifully written work, Portia shines a bright light on a dark subject. A crucial book for all those who might sometimes feel at war with themselves or their bodies, Unbearable Lightness is a story that inspires hope and nourishes the spirit.
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- Dawn
- 11-13-10
Beautifully Sad
How someone could hate themselves so much is astonishing. This is a beautifully written yet heartbreaking book. I enjoyed that it is read by Portia herself, her warm voice soothes you over even as you wish you could go back to that time and grab her and shake her and tell her that she was beautiful and to stop hating herself! I was engrossed from the first sentence.
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- Dina
- 12-13-10
Painful
Very, very hard to read. The day to day horror of being anorexic/bulemic literally made me sick to my stomach. Her body image was very much tied into the fact that she was hiding her homosexuality and trying to portray the story of someone else...someone that she thought would please her mother and the world. Once she was willing to come out and risk her career, she was able to begin healing the eating disorder. Her relationship with Ellen DeGeneres is not featured in the book and only mentioned at the very end. Painful, but moving.
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- Coghan
- 02-20-13
For All Dieters, not just Anorexic Girls
What did you love best about Unbearable Lightness?
She speaks from the perspective of someone who has not just been there, but who came out the other side truly understanding what it was she had done, and why. It isn't clinical, but she documents her experience without the reader/listener feeling as if she is trying to make you feel sorry for her in any way. Very developed mature presentation of the facts of her circumstances, but you see into her psyche and emotions in a way that is so open that it is nearly intimate.
What was one of the most memorable moments of Unbearable Lightness?
When she was alone in the hotel room, in agonizing physical pain, even understanding why it was she was hurting, and yet unable to stop herself from continuing the ritual OCD behavior that made up her disorder. The description was so real, so vivid and raw, that it touched my heart and was somewhat of an emotional experience.
Which character – as performed by Portia de Rossi – was your favorite?
Herself.
If you were to make a film of this book, what would be the tag line be?
Couldn't do better than the front of the book: A story of loss and gain.
Any additional comments?
I only read the book because I was curious about what kind of woman Ellen Degeneres had in her life. Ellen has helped me see life in a more positive way, and I had to ask myself what kind of woman her wife was, to back up such a powerful and inspiring person as she is. Well I expected a book on anorexia, and being a very overweight middle aged man, I did not think there would be anything that I would get from it on a personal level, other than to satisfy my curiosity about Portia's character . Well I was very wrong. Although the results were different, she got very skinny, and I got very fat, the basic attitudes about food and even some of the OCD behaviors were exactly what I had been through. Even some childhood experiences were similar. I'd basically been on a diet every day since first grade, and had become progressively fatter doing many of the same things Portia was doing. In fact, in all my life, the only time I was a normal weight was during high school when I worked out like a mad man and starved myself. But like Portia, I knew my behavior was not what others were doing, but it was 'working' and I patted myself on the back. Of course, as soon as I quit starving due to health issues that frightened me (similar to Portia again) I got even heavier. So long story short, I have been applying the advice she gives in the book about never dieting, never restricting foods. I also have adopted a plant based way of eating. And since I first read this in May '12, I've lost about 80 lbs. My health is returning, and I'm eating what I want when I want it, without starving or glutting, just listening to my body. I'd heard that advice before, but never in a way that actually sunk in or connected with me in any way. She says the book is for anyone who has been on a diet. I didn't believe that when I picked up the book originally. But I've now read the hard copy 3 times and listened to the audiobook. Every time I do, I pick up another insight into my own lifelong behavior and it helps me make further healthy adjustments in my attitude and actions. This is a must read if you have struggled with weight either way.
29 people found this helpful
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- M. D.
- 12-19-10
Wow.
Portia takes you into her world as an anorexic. She is more honest than most people are with themselves, let alone millions of strangers. I'm not sure if this book would help others with eating disorders, but it helps those who don't have one understand what it's like. I did feel that by the end it was all wrapped up in too tidy a bow, with little explanation of the struggle to come back from the illness, but the journey she takes you on is so incredible I didn't want to give it less than 5 stars. I watched Portia every week on Ally McBeal, but I never realized how articulate and funny she really is.
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- Kelley
- 12-12-10
Recommended
While clearly written by a celebrity - keeping her cards close to her vest - still recommended. The issue of women's body image and hollywood's impact on us and it's stars is an important one that needs to be discussed more. I enjoyed the reading as well.
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- Private.
- 11-08-12
The definitive book on Anorexia/Bulimia. Period.
I would recommend this to anyone that can't relate/doesn't understand the mindset of an Anorexic/Bulimic. I'd also recommend this to people that want a career in acting or modeling because of de Rossi's well-deserved rage and frustration with the pressure to conform to the unhealthy and dangerous "size zero" ideal that the entertainment and modeling industry forces upon women, young and old. From beginning to end, the author guides you through the day to day, moment by moment hell that she went through to meet societal standards so that she could earn a living, petrified that her next meal could trigger another dangerous binge. This is also a candid memoir about a time in Hollywood when stating that you are gay meant the end of your career. She lived in fear of being "outed" and stalked by the press, becoming tabloid fodder and never being able to work again. Heartbreaking and devastating. de Rossi is such a talented author that I wish she'd write more books in the future. Her intense and vivid style of writing instantly draws the listener in. This is a definitive "must listen."
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- M. Chau
- 04-26-12
amazing!!!
this is officially one of the best books i have ever read! the way the author told the story was incredible. so honest, candid, and it unfolds very naturally. her voice and her words captivated me in every moment. there were parts that made me laugh and also parts that made me cry. i felt as if i was with the author and that i in her shoes.
as someone who has suffered with anorexia and bulimia, i was able to relate so much to her story. the manner in which she describes how debilitating and life threatening anorexia was for her and the opposite swing that she experienced into bulimia and uncontrollable binge eating. this book reminds me that i am not alone and so honestly details the hell that someone with an eating disorder goes through each and every day. if your want to know the hell of what it's like to have an eating disorder, this book is such a graphic and realistic depiction.
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- Stephanie
- 07-29-12
Riveting
It is generally not a good decision to be the narrator of your own book, but I think it was a good decision in this case. After listening to this, I felt like I truly understood what it was like to have an eating disorder. Not only was the writing first rate, I felt like the author was as true and honest as she could be while detailing her experience. There was not a false note anywhere.
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- KP
- 11-28-10
Negative Self Talk
Haunting... A very truthful tell on the negative self talk, which accompanies disordered eating behaviors.
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- R
- 05-15-18
Easily one of top 3 books I've ever read.
I never have a dieting problem. I never care about my weight. I bought this book mainly because I am a big fan of her and Ellen. To my surprise, I found myself relating so well with Portia's stories. I can imagine that the parts about self criticism, imposter syndrome, self-blaming, and the insecurity about any imperfection we have that our inner voice keeps reminding us are relatable to most people. The fear that we might never be good enough for our dream job is very relatable to me. Even though my dream job is to become a successful tenured professor, which is something very different from being a celebrity, there are so many parallels in the stories (many, if not most, of PhD students and professors suffer from imposter syndrome).
This book is not just about eating disorder. It is about self acceptance, about being kind to yourself, about being realistic regarding the standard and expectation you set for yourself, which is a very important message to everyone. I am very grateful that Portia shares her personal stories with us.
Audio version review: I have read this book when it came out in hard-cover many years ago. I am so glad that I get an audio version along with it! Listening to Portia's voice saying all those harsh words to herself is so powerful. Her excellent audio performance gives me the perspective of how unrealistic and unreasonable negative self talk can often be. It makes me understand how she had felt so deeply it is like I was in the journey with her.
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